To those of you who read, I apologize for the absence. Here I am trying to build and be part of the blog community and I go AWOL for a while....


That aside, I have been home for just under a week now- deliciously cramped in my lovely cave- and have found myself in a place that I never really imagined. I am not only trying to battle between majors and discover which career I am being called to, I also find myself on a journey of deciding if transferring is in the cards for me. This journey is exhausting; requiring me to dig deep and meditate and pray... this sadly leaves little time for art. The piece above is from a couple of weeks ago. (another reason that art has not been a driving force for me is because I'm a tad intimidated by my mother's talent.)


It's been busy, between working, helping my dearest friend with wedding stuff, and trying to figure out the direction my life will be taking by the end of July. Sometimes I just wish that I could disappear, need nothing and nobody but myself, and the journey's I would go on. But I am satisfied. I'm happy with the way home is, and how it is exactly what I needed. I feel content with the baby steps of growing up that seem to be slowly continuing. At least one aspect of my life is moving forward...

How I long to be through this and know that I had made the right decision, that this one summer of choices and discoveries had led me to everything I ever wanted. But, that would be kind of missing the point, wouldn't it?

Don't Give Up

It's been a few days... Okay, more than a few days. My attempt to focus only on school (4 more days!!!!) means cutting out distractions and only accomplishing what is necessary. Today painting became a need. I put on the music and let it fly.


So, every once and a while, I will stumble across a song in my iTunes library that I've never heard before, simply because I've downloaded playlists, other libraries, or entire CD's and I haven't heard every song. Then a beautiful moment during listening to my music on shuffle, I hear unfamiliar notes. If I'm not in the mood for new, I skip... which happens a lot. But today, I was paralyzed in the peaceful moment where words float through my speaker that were meant just for me. I'm going on and on about this because I want to share that song. Wish it was more eclectic and not so stereotypical but it is what it is... and honestly it moved me.

Three tests tomorrow then I just have finals. I'm so close now... to being home, working lots, saving money and time for art (hopefully every day) and giving summer all the love it desires and deserves!

Go find your heart-stopping song for today

Walk On Water

Happy July! I can't believe that times flies so quickly... having fun or not.

This above journal page is the one I mentioned in my previous post, and obviously, I had not gone straight home and done it. My class went full time, which means that I didn't get home till 6 after being gone since 7:30 am. I need to soak, to relax and rest. Which is exactly what I did. Then I did this journal page this morning inspired by scripture and the song "Storm" by Lifehouse.

I absolutely love this song, its worth a listen. I'm trying to get back in the habit of seeing God and His hand in my life. I know everything will be alright.

Here's the present I'd been working on for my mom. It's inspired by Teesha. I love her work and have always wanted to do something in her style. This is as close as I got to her genius.
My mom calls this her little art muse. I'm glad she likes it.

Today is a day of keeping on track, keeping my attitude up, working on bringing up my spiritual level and studying like crazy. One more week and I still have to bring me grades up a bit. But I believe in myself.

I have to...